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While I think I'll split the consulting page in two, currently some basic examples of webdesign are at the bottom. When browsing through my computer for website info, I found a site I never posted, but designed in flash... in my "insanely happy" time at Duke. That is, there was a particular 6 months of junior year when I was waking up to doing new things, and during that period of time, I designed this insane website. I think, even at the time, part of what was funny and made me smile about it was how over the top the flash was. I mean, daisies that say hello?

It's borderline manic.

But! still a good demonstration of some basic flash skills. I hope folks take it lightly. I do. Gets me to a general point about happiness, actually - there's a line in a sage francis song that is something to the effect of: "this won't necesarily make you happier... but will give you a greater range of emotion." One of the big turn offs for me from folks professing their spirituality (as in, shuts me down to want to ask them questions) is the belief or expectation that to be deeply spiritual means to be non-stop over-the-top happy. I don't think I have an interest in that, actually.

In one of my other online profiles, I mention something about enjoying smiling... but don't prefer it over being appropriately unhappy. I feel I've met some folks that, with great reason, mistrust the seemingly disconnected, fairy-tale-land happiness some folks professing a faith seem to front. Now, don't get me wrong, a lighter, more relaxed, easier-to-enjoy-life attitude may be a consequence of deep spiritual work, certainly. But to the exclusion of other emotions... like a stone-person with a plastic smile?

What's really at stake, to me, with putting on the happy face and attributing the mask to your spiritual life is the attitude of pretending to know what's at the end of the path while you're on it. Now, if you're on the path, and right where you are is happy, great. But who can tell for sure that they're not partly "faking it til they make it?" And nobody with sensitivity trusts a faker... well, except perhaps to trust their being themselves. But trust for the answers some folks suggest they have? Again, no thanks.

Not for me. Anybody else? If so, that's cool - and you might like the website I posted then. Hire me and I'll make you an even happier one, professing your eternal happiness.

peace,mike

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